Honesty is the Best Policy – How Addicted Are You To Your Mobile?

Honesty is the Best Policy – How Addicted Are You To Your Mobile?

Mobile phones cause addictive behaviour, no doubt about it. I am on my phone for most of the day, either surfing the internet, listening to Youtube videos, or playing free games through Google Play. I know I have an unhealthy addiction to my smart phone. I’ve had to curb my 8 ball pool play to two or three games per day, instead of two or three hours. So far, it’s been two days and I’ve succeeded.

These above activities can seem normal in this day, but what happens when the mobile phone turns into addictive behaviour that wrecks lives. Let’s take the gambling industry for example. Celebrities like Ray Winstone promote gambling as cool, but it’s okay for him to endorse it because he is well paid. What about the lives that gambling destroys, when there is very much help available even from the gambling industry.

Ross Kemp has recently done a documentary on ITV called Living With Online Gambling Addiction, and it was so saddening to hear these stories of desperate people who just couldn’t stop. One guy said that he lost over £127k in 26 minutes. Gambling can destroy families, and may even cause suicide in some desperate individuals who just don’t know what to do anymore. Addiction is just plain horrible for anyone going through it, and for their families. More support should be available for this debilitating mental illness called addiction. The Panorama Addicted to Gambling documentary on gambling addiction mentions that approximately 400,000 people in the UK have a gambling addiction, but experts believe that number could be far higher.

Gambling should be illegal. Lotto should be banned, but gambling has become so sensationalised by the media and celebrities. It is a true evil. 666 is all over those lottery tickets. Look closely at the old National Lottery tickets where the fingers cross. It’s clearly a 666.

The betting industry knows what it is doing in creating apps that stimulate the mind and cause addiction. The warnings of addiction are only in small writing, just like alcohol warnings on adverts on the TV and in print. At least they’ve done something about smoking, but these peace pipes are just keeping people addicted to nicotine and no doubt whatever is inside these liquids that people inhale will probably reveal to be toxic too.

Shame on celebrities for promoting gambling as cool, when it is a temptation that can easily turn into an evil one that causes addictive behaviour and mental illness. I learned my lesson many years ago when I became addicted to online gaming. Luckily I only lost about £3,000, but the sensations that it creates in winning, and also the desperation it causes in losing just makes you want to continue to win. It creates an unending anxiety that is spirit destroying. I wouldn’t ever recommend anyone ever downloads any gambling apps. Don’t bet a penny, because the gambling industry is satanic and there to destroy lives because that is the aim of the prideful devil.

Mr Sleepy? I’m Buggered

Mr Sleepy? I’m Buggered

What a nightmare couple of days. I’ve been going to bed early for the past week, average time 8.30pm, but the other day I had a banging headache so instead of taking painkillers I decided to have an early night instead. The only trouble is that I woke up at 11.30pm and couldn’t get back to sleep.

So yesterday I was absolutely buggered, and I couldn’t stop the tears from streaming about 5pm yesterday. I was so tired that I couldn’t even keep my eyes open to play a session of Spider. This was at 5.30pm and went to bed. I woke up today at 12.30am wide awake and had two bloody lattes. How stupid. I’ll probably have a caffeine headache later.

Anyhow, are there are any sleep experts out there? Should I force myself to stay awake until about 10pm tonight so that I can get into a restful sleep pattern again? I suppose I’m getting the sleep, but it’s crappy to feel tired so early in the day. Been very emotional today, and skin picking has been very bad, so wonder if it’s anything to do with this lack of sleep. I forced myself to do a Tabata kettlebell workout so at least this has levelled out my manic head.

God bless everybody. I hope there is a moment in your day that God blesses and is for only you  to see. Do you ever have those moments, like watching a money spider climb its thread adn then disappear equally fast. Man, their legs are fast for tiny creatures. Aww at 12.30am, the tiniest fly landed on my laptop and I had to smile. The smallest creatures have wings. How amazing.

Crying Doesn’t Last Forever and Joy Follows Tears

Crying Doesn’t Last Forever and Joy Follows Tears

Sometimes when the tears are flowing, I start to once again believe that these tears are not going to stop, but eventually they subside and the burden is less. I think the reason why crying is so shamed in our society is because we believe that once we start, it’s never going to stop. This just isn’t the case.

Sometimes tears can last longer than some other episodes, but crying is healthy. Our tears reduce stress, so although crying doesn’t feel comfortable at the time, crying can be one of the most healthiest outlets for us as human beings. Even though I say all this, I still get afraid of crying because it’s so embarrassing to have a panic attack while I’m out and fall apart in public, or around my family, or partner.

Most of the time I cry when I’m depressed, frustrated, angry, overwhelmed, unable to stop my OCD, or even tired. Once I cried with happiness – when my partner proposed. I never thought anyone would ever want to marry me. Emotions are strange in how they manifest.

Feel Some Compassion Humans Because OCD is Horrible

Feel Some Compassion Humans Because OCD is Horrible

My doctor says that my compulsive skin picking, or dermatillomania, as its proper name, is part of the OCD family. Even though I’ve attempted to cure this disorder through many avenues, including dry fasting, iboga therapy, clinical hypnosis, prozac, sertrilline, duloxetine, visual coding displacement therapy, meditation, vitamin therapy, N’Acetyl Cysteine (NAC), tissue salts, acupuncture, I’m still plagued with this compulsive disorder every day.

People tell me to just stop, but they don’t know what it is like. Even fellow Christians do not have much understanding and just say that I am sinning. Are they perfect? Do they not have some kind of a compulsion, because nobody is perfect. I kept this disorder hidden for ten years before I finally disclosed it, and only really my partner understands, because he’s fragile too.

The Daily Struggle When You Have No Official Diagnosis For Mental Illness

The Daily Struggle When You Have No Official Diagnosis For Mental Illness

It’s pointless visiting my doctor to talk about my mental health problems, because I’m just one of hundreds of clients that he has. Since I lost my job in 2016 due to deteriorating mental health problems, I’ve gradually worsened to the point where it is lucky if I have one or two days in a row when I’m feeling actually okay to go about life. Tearful episodes can last for hours, or the depression can go up and down for days before there is a breakthrough. I have no proper diagnosis.

When I visited him several months ago to tell him that I think I have borderline personality disorder, he disagreed and said he would never classify me with something like that, but most of my symptoms did match up with what I read on borderline personality disorder. I constantly run away, I socially exclude myself, I’m paranoid lots, haven’t many friends, and I self harm daily through dermatillomania. Tried drugs but I slept for most of the day, and that doesn’t help to life the spirits with depression.

Guess I just have to take each day as it comes, but I applaud everyone with mental health problems who can make it through the day. The Daily Oscar goes to you.